Will Power

I realized with absolutely certainty and an equal amount of shame, that I have a very long road ahead of me on this weight loss journey.  Thankfully, I will be following Christ this time and I know through Him, all things are possible.  The other night, my husband and I had a few errands to run and I said something to him about buying me an ice cream cone later.  At one point we were both talking about how we really want to lose weight and he surmised that we should skip the ice cream then.  I wasn't feeling 100% and was also feeling very warm and so as he was walking away, I whined (rather loudly) "But I'm hot"...as if I was actually expecting him to turn around and say that we should go get it right away then.  He gave in and asked me where I wanted to get the ice cream as we were leaving and I told him that I didn't want it.  He was feeling bad thinking that he had been too hard on me but I really didn't want to get any because I realized just how pathetic I was and how right he was about me not needing it.  Thankfully, he had more will power than I did at the right time.  As it continued to sink in how horribly pathetic I had acted, I started to really feel sorry for myself and I was angry that it was so difficult for me to give up the foods that I crave so often.  I got home and was talking with God, asking Him to help me find the strength and will power that I will surely need on this weight loss walk with Him and I started crying because I just felt so weak!  Then, I realized I had reached an all new level of pathetic so I listened to Him and got up to hit the treadmill.  Afterward, I felt 100 times better and was so thankful I had chosen the treadmill over the ice cream.  So, I owe this one to my husband and the man upstairs!