I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself today and I hate that...because that's not who I am AT ALL! However, as I struggle to get this new diet/exercise program off on the right foot (or any foot at all), that is exactly what I am doing...struggling. I struggled my way through the aisles at the grocery store today...struggled past the ice cream and right over to the chips. Then, I decided since I had won the battle over the ice cream, it would be ok to buy the store brand turtle cheesecake...just two very small slices. And...since I hadn't had my coffee yet for the day, and it was already 12:00pm, that would be a nice snack when I got home. Coffee with one slice of turtle cheesecake. Except it ended up being both slices of turtle cheesecake. So, now it's gone and I can start over again. I did also buy the lime tortilla chips (yum) with some nacho cheese, but opted to just have a few chips along with my sandwich for lunch.
Not sure if I even have a point to this post...just that I'm really struggling. As my life crumbles before my very eyes, with things still so up and down with my husband and no resolution or anything close to it in sight...I just want to turn to food and I am fighting against my flesh every second of every day. I do know that if I can win these battles right now I am sure to win the war. So, with God in my corner...I'm heading back to the battlefield.
How do all of you handle the struggles, big or little ones? Mine are mostly big right now and I'm still trying to grasp hold of the fact that they are my struggles, this all still seems a bit surreal to me.
May God bless you all!
Trudy
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